Of results and CCA draft

Today got back almost all the results, except bio. Anyway, I already knew my MCQ score, terrible lor. Other results still ok lor. Hope that the A grade cut-off for Chem is below my score, if not I would go bang my head against the wall. So near yet so far is the kind of feeling that I detest the most. My bio sure isn't going to make it. If I can get a pass and above, is very good already.


Checking of CCA Draft was horrendous, so messy. Didn't know that the school computer system is actually so screwed up, mistakes here-there-everywhere. Lousy. Many people's summaries were of 2 pages, mine only 1 page, so pathetic, like I very contribution-less like that. Compared to my Sec 4 CCA record which filled almost the whole page, when others' were only half the page...sigh.


People have already started studying for A-levels while I'm still in the exam-just-over kinda mood. Terrible. Still can afford to waste time talking during the 1h 20 min buffer time somemore...hosei ah. Haha.

End of Prelims

Yeah, finally finish my prelims liao. Its so funny...at 1 moment I'm receiving my exam scripts, the next moment, I'm sitting in the exam hall, doing yet another paper. Haha. S Papers were tough, needless to say, to think the physics qns that I attempted was actually gone thru by Mr Chan during one of the sessions, yet I still got it totally wrong. Haha, who ask me nvr study...


Got back my maths paper liao, all thanks to my paper 1 pulled me up or you can also say all thanks to my paper 2 pulled me down... some people around me all get 90+++, make me seem so lousy like that. Sigh, but never mind lah. Bio so far is just just just passed only. Still got 89 marks worth of scripts with the teachers...whether my wish come true all not all lies in my DESTINY. Haha, I have no CHOICE!


Oh and speaking of that, I still have my essay and AQ on DESTINY and CHOICE awaiting me. Sigh, I want to rest also cannot. Tired leh...

End of Part 1

I call this the end of part 1, cos thats the end of the core papers. 2 more S Papers to go. Actually, I think the stress level has reduced by quite a lot by now. Cos I know I won't make it for S Papers, so anything above an "U" grade is considered very remarkable already. But even if thats the case, I don't see why the school is so unfair to have lessons in the morning. Why, don't need to study at all is it? I want my definition marks ok!


Actually I did regret...not abt taking S Papers, its abt not taking Maths S Paper. Cos I think my Physics is really getting from bad to worse. But its too late already. And I too regret taking the Triple Sci combi instead of Double Maths. Bio is really hard leh, and I'm so so sick of bio that I really don't know how I'm going to survive the actual paper. It really seems as if no matter how hard I've tried or how much effort I've put in, there's still no improvement. Once again, be glad that my results don't deteriorate...


And Mrs Ho was the very very 1st teacher to 'feed' us with GP compre. So fast eh? According to her command, I'm only supposed to touch it after S papers, but maybe if I'm in a good mood tonight, I will try to complete so that its ready for discussion on Tues, but depends on my mood. Haha....

Another break...

Yeah, 2 more MCQ papers and 2 more S papers to go...I'm glad that the prelims are finally coming to an end, very very soon, but it will only be abt 1 month before the actual A levels. My goodness, its fast eh? I'm not going to do well for this prelims, I know, don't tell me, and don't doubt me too.


Anyway, luckily there's no paper tmr, so I can stay at home and SLACK. Ok lah, rest would probably be a more apt word. Once again, tonite's gonna be the absolute refractory period again, to prevent exhaustion and fatigue. Haha. No depolarisation so no influx of any knowledge at all. All the knowledge-sensitive channels are closed. Too bad! Haha. I'm crazy.

Disappointment

Its disappointing...the prelim of course and something else related to someone else. Talk abt the prelim 1st. I know its meant to be hard. But I don't see the need for killer papers right? I'm referring to Physics P2 and Biology. To the smart people out there, I really don't mind if they beg to differ, but thats how I feel.


Regarding the next something, theres nothing much to talk abt. Maybe I'm just petty or too sensitive, but i trust my sense and intuition. Sigh, make me feel sad. Sickening person.


Anyway, just hope that the upcoming papers will be better. I'm left with Physics P3, Chemistry P1 & 2, Biology P1 and 2 S Papers. They will be difficult and thats needless to say. To avoid further disappointment, I shan't think of anything else and I shall go to sleep. I need that sleep!!!

1 week less...1week more

Yah yah, 1 week of break gone and 1 week more of hols before prelims...PRELIMS!!! My goodness, its such an impt exam and somehow i don't feel the sense of anxiety and urgency and whatever-u-call-it at this moment, despite having the whole of physics and bio untouched! Should I panic or laugh or what?I don't know. I guess I'll just blog.

Last day

Today - the last day of the term. The next time i see my friends...oh gosh! Its gonna be Prelims, which is like 2 weeks away. Seriously and strictly speaking, I haven't started studying at all, and here i am, still blogging away. Fine.


We didn't celebrate much actually. just some well-wishes and a mug for each teacher. And a cake for Ah Chong. Really reminds me of how 4e1 didn't show our appreciation during 2004 Teachers' Day cos we were busy with our prelim preparation. I didn't know the teachers actually expected students to give them something. As in, of course they know that students would give them something, but i didn't know they would actually say it out so openly. Yah.


'Bought 2 6R class photos. Really regretted not buying last year, so i don't have a complete set now. But anyway, its ok since i don't like CG last year anyway. But I don't really approve of the way the photog society handle our photos. First there was a minimum orde of $120, then there's the 150% 6R and 8R order. Now, they say they can't develop 4R photos, cos there's someting wrong with the machine. Yah, how convenient.


Back to the last day talk, yah, today the last day, quite slack too. There were only 4 guys who turned up officially. I guess the rest of the people pre-empted that nothing much would be done today. Seems like they are right. Great foresight huh! Anyway, I don't intend to return within the next 2 weeks, so yah. So long!

Things to say...

It really makes me feel rather weird and uneasy seeing the things that people write and their phrasing of words. I mean, is it realy true that everyone becomes a different person once he/she gets hooked on to the PC? Apparently it is, cos there seems like a few cases already. But I don't think I'm like them, cos at this very moment, I'm still thinking like the way I always think. Or has my personality already splitted without my knowledge?


This is my last official week for this school term. Fortunately, cos its only Mon, and I'm already feeling the kind of Fri's tiredness. Really, its a kinda mixed emotions. On one hand, I'm so glad not having to wake up early, to do all those dumb bio rev tests, don't need to attend GP lessons, no more S Papers, no more yucky canteen food...etc...and the list goes on...at least for the next 2 weeks. (Wow, I didn't know that there're actually so many things i dreaded about school). But on the other hand, I feel a little sad. Maybe cos it means I would be seeing less of my friends, CG people, ZJ & company...


Its approx 2-3 weeks before Prelims, and i can feel some of the people around me are going haywire soon. Me too. I really really have NO confidence for Bio. At all. I can really imagine myself staring blankly at the essay qns, like what i did during JCT, not knowing what to write at all. At this moment, I really wish to drop the subject, chuck it aside and never look at it anymore. I've never loathed Bio so much...its...I really don't know how to say.

Lets put it this way. There are so many things that i don't understand...and these are the things that many of us not understand too, or so they claimed. But I don't take things lying down...but i have nobody to turn to...ZJ had a shock out of her life when she saw how HE reacted when I asked HIM an MCQ. Hello!...its only MCQ...what reaction am I supposed to get if its an essay qns? I think HE would freak out. I think I would too. But no matter what, I'm still going to try my best. Yah, it sounds cliche, but tell me, what can i do? I have no choice right?


Right.


And for once, I really think that the songs sung by 5566 are actually so nice...

Tests and Results...

This week is really a terribly a busy week. Mon-Bio Rev Test Tues-Biochem Test, Wed-Ionic/Chem Equilibrium Self Test, Thurs-Electrochem Self Test, Fri-Physics Lecture Test, Bio Rev Test. I'm going crazy soon. Thank goodness, tmr is Friday and the week is finally ending. But so what? There's tonnes of work waiting for me to complete over the wkn.

Nanyang Concept Test results are out. I failed, of course, i didn't study or prepare for it anyway. 25/60. u think i can be in the 50th percentile, so that i can get at least a merit? I doubt so. Anyway, whats done cannot be undone, so too bad lah.

Mystery Unraveled!

It was that dumb ear stud or whatever you call it. My ear has been blocked for 2 whole days. At first, though impossible, we thought it was water. The when that dumb green thing went missing, I suspected it went in. Nobody believed me. Or rather, nobody believed that something would actually drop into my ear.


Finally went to Ployclinic to check today. They referred me to A&E of Changi General Hospital. It was scary. I was brought to that room, with all the metal forceps and scapels and equipment. The Dr first placed that long metal vacuum thing into my ear. I could feel the wind gushing into my ear. But nothing came out. He said that the ear stud had pierced through the flesh, and its stuck there. My goodness, I could've fainted on the spot. I was so scared I would become deaf or what after everything. And I was also scared that the Dr would have to perform surgery to get that thing out. I was just so worried. I was trembling, of course, from my teeth to my toes.


Then he used another sharper metal instrument, together with some liquid in my ear. U could've imagined the pain when that metal thing went poking and scraping along my ear canal. I was told not to shout, or to move. Fine. I pinched myself. At the end of the whole 'torture', well that ear stud finally came out. Both my ear and leg was painful. I was prescribed eardrops, in case of infection. But well, finally my hearing's back to normal. And I know there's nothing stuck in my ear canal.


It was really scary and painful. But I'm glad I didn't wait till a few days later before I see the Dr. It could've been worse. I've learnt a lesson- always to take off my ear rings before I sleep.

The last of NAPFA

I just ran the last official 2.4km of my life. Hooray! No more inclined pull-ups, no more standing broad jump, no more sit n reach...My nightmares, whether you believe it or not. Though its already like 2 days since I did my 5 items test, my body is still aching like crazy. You know I had such a hard time getting up from bed!! I can't laugh hard, or else...Haha.


I don't know, but i think some of my class guys are downright selfish. Why can't they help us gals take our timings? It doesn't happen in other classes leh...What's the big deal about playing soccer? We are all classmates! But I'm grateful that someone took my timing for me.


Today's run was terrible. I didn't feel well even before I started running, but its the last time already. By the 3rd round, I can feel myself almost fainting. I see pple all around me, then my sides were so so so pain. Then i heard someone calling my name, I'm not sure lah, as I was in a half-conscious state. But I just continued running. From my timings, I could see myself decelerating. Haha. So physics. But its true. I'm quite comforted at least he asked whether I was ok, cos I was feeling so unwell. I felt like going home. Thanks gals, who helped me.


Then today for chem, Miss Wong said sth that shocked me, which I didn't expect her to know.
I think the maths test was ok, so long as there weren't any deadly careless mistakes, which I'm so proned to make. Haha. So much so. And speaking of that, all our guys went round the school this morning, under the command of the PE teacher, in search of the luncher. It was so funny, its like some massive search or treasure hunt or sth, so interesting. Physics lesson was fun, with the exercises that were encouraged by Hello Kitty, and the bet that she made with us.


Yesterday's photo shoot was fun. Yah, making fun of pple. we insisted on going to some funny funny places to take our informal shots, when the photog pple keep insisting that they have a tight schedule. In the end, they still gave in, after much pestering from us and Ah Chong. But the formal shoot is no good, I think. I don't like "bird's eye view" kind of photo. But no choice, shall see how it turns out.


And yesterday, I also saw my level ranking. I thought I would have dropped a lot, surprisingly, I didn't. Instead I crept to 64. Luckily still in top 10%. But anyway, A-levels is the only exam that really matters.

...agacant...

I don't fancy people without simple manners and courtesy. I don't understand why he suddenly chose to sit alone in front, and rushing off the bus without waiting for us. WHATS THE HURRY??? Before yesterday, he wasn't like that. He used to sit with us at the back and talked and we waited for each other. I don't care if I offended him or not, cos I know I didn't. But too bad that I'm born petty and too easily angered by trivial matters. At the very least, I make an effort to wait for my friends who board the same bus as me, to alight.


I don't want to come to school every morning, feeling angry and unhappy. So I'm not going to board the same bus as him anymore, even if it means that I have to wake up especially early so that I'd board the earlier buses. And I MEAN IT!!!


And from this post of mine, I think its obvious that I'm angry.

Friday...finally...

This week is finally ending, finally. Don't know why, but I feel so tired. Maybe cos everything's in full swing liao, I really long for some good rest...not doing any homework, not studying anything, yah, I wish. Got Biochem test next week.


Yesterday's PE was hell. Yf told me that by the end of 3rd round, we would be totally exhausted. True enough, I really was exhausted. But it was so shocking to see the way she cheong during the last round. I caught up with her during the 1st 200m, but after that, people start overtaking me. After that dumb round, I really felt like fainting. My head was spinning like crazy lor. But still, I ran 2min. So total I ran 5 rounds in 2.02+1.57+1.57+1.56+2.00 mins. U tell me whether will die or not lah.


I've finally sort of "handed over" Scico stuff to Esther. I really don't expect the teachers to haunt me that frequently anymore, but appparently, I was not very right. Sigh.


So glad that Monday don't have to go to school.

Newsflash!

I set my alarm at 1.50am, but when it went off, i silenced it and continued sleeping. When I woke up, it was already past 24 min, and the score was already 1-1.


I supported France, but they lost. I was so puzzled by what Zidane did. I almost freaked out, when i saw the replay of how he butt-headed the italian player.


But I was even more disappointed when i saw him being 'awarded' the red card. That was his last match...it was such a pity. Was he crazy or what? Hand injury too painful that he was out of his mind?
Too tired? I wonder what the French would do to him when he returns at the airport.


Anyway, World Cup aside, i've got back my GP today. Didn't do well,
but luckily didn't fail overall. But so many people did so much better...sigh, nobody but myself to blame.


I slept at 5.30am this morning and woke up again at 10am. How fun it was to go to school during the afternoon!

Updates!

Today only half day...yeah!!! Went shopping and bought something for my handphone. Went to T Mall and saw the Hokkaido Fair at the atrium. Ate a double scoop ice cream - Red Bean and Green Tea for $5. It was simply ice-cream-licious. Haha, reminded me of the times in Japan, where we ate green tea ice cream for 300Y when the season then was winter. Haha. How nice.


And something quite nice...the chrome alum crystal that ZJ and I seeded during the hols grew to quite a size. And even quite nice too. Finally have something to tell Mrs Lim if she were to catch me the next time. Haha.


Now for the not so nice...lousy results of course, what else. Managed to just-pass bio, chem and physics equally terrible, but not as bad as bio. Sigh. Haven't get back maths, but I doubt it would be any better. For GP, I think I'm hopeless. Mrs Ho said that many did the technology qns, and many died on the battlefield. I'm gone for sure. How?

World Cup

It was so diasppointing. Argentina lost to Germany last night. But luckily Italy won, 3-0. Tonight, England VS Portugal. Brazil VS France.


John Terry got a yellow card at 29'.
David Beckham was substituted by Aaron Lennon at 51'.
Wayne Rooney got a red card at 61'.


Why?


I hope that England and Brazil would win. Haha.

Donations

I didn't know that asking people for donation would be so tiring. But it was fun and meaningful though.
I knew getting people to buy the CDs would be impossible, but I didn't expect the whole situation to be that bad. Its Orchard Road leh, the link being, its probably the busiest and buzziest street in Singapore...asking people for donation was bad enough, who would still dare to ask them about the CDs? But its rather funny to see their reactions though.

When you approached people for donations:

1. Some nodded their heads and walked away
2. Some rejected you right in-front
3. Some thought that you were invisible
4. Some thought that you were some kind of plague, and started running
5. Some made some remarks which you didn't understand and walked away
6. Some just stared at you blankly, etc

Haha. Not driving at anything, but I'm just listing my encounters. Oh, and there were "allies" too. Haha. I think I can really understand how those people doing flag day felt when they were being rejected. But there were really quite some generous souls who donated twice or emptied all the coins in their pockets. Commendable!

Finally

Finally. The JCT was a terrible disaster, especially the Bio paper. So what if I knew that it would be a difficult paper? It doesn't and won't make any difference. The Chem paper was a not-to-be-finished one. Didn't have time to complete, let alone check. The Physics and Maths paper were tiring and tough of course, and GP? Not meant to be passed.

Now that's everything is finally over, just keep my fingers crossed lor. KS's right- JCT is not about how you well you pass, its about how badly you fail. Haha.

Half of Last Week gone...

Ok. Today is already Wed, which means 4 more days to end of the hols. My goodness, time's really running out, and here I am still blogging about some trivial and unimportant stuff instead of mugging. I still have Chem and Bio totally untouched...and not to forget my GP homework also. No time liao lor.


Just a joke. Last nite i was recording the 9pm Channel 8 show. But somehow or other, the last part was recorded to become some Channel 5 World Cup News. The culprit? Yours truly, of course. I didn't realise I've set the channel wrongly, so this morning, my mum's 11am Channel 8 show, naturally became some Channel 5 sitcom. Haha. Blur. Ok, maybe not so funny afterall.


People who know me well may have heard this for dont know how many times, but I still must voice my anger and dissatisfaction. Its terribly dumb to have exams immediately after hols...blah blah blah. Haha. And I think the bio teachers are really cruel. They could have just set 1 qns on each topic and there we have to study for all near-20 chapters thoroughly, just to tackle that very minimal qns. Its not not-true, cos there are so few qns in a paper and so many things to be asked from all those chapters! Whatever, I don't care. If I can't finish, then I won't finish. I will not blame myself. Instead, I will blame the teachers. Haha. No lah, I won't blame anyone.


Tonight shall be the last episode for "Jewel in the Palace". Tomorrow night shall be the long-awaited "Armed Reactions IV". Yeah! Look forward to the theme song.

2 weeks gone...

Ok. Motivated by G, i shall post again. Haven't really been mugging leh, whether u choose to believe me or not. I still think its a lousy system to have exams or common tests immediately after the hols. Its really irritating to make the students feel guilty if they just idle their hols away. But too bad, despite my guilt, i've still done the latter.


Other than watching TV, going out and slacking, i really haven't done anything much. Yah, and I'm so proud to say that I'm only stuck by 1 Binomial & Poisson qns....thats because i only tried 1 qns lah. Haha. Serious. I don't fancy doing any more maths sums after being stuck at the very 1st qns. Naturally, I gave up. Maybe will try again on Mon? Maybe...


2 more weeks have past, which means 2 more weeks for revision. 4 subjects + GP...u think its do-able? Nah...